I wade in this water to find its source.

I need to remember Resilience.

I think it is the answer to my anxieties.
Learning from creation-
I've heard it described how animals
can put up a chase for their desired prey,
but once they realize it is out of their grasp
there is no complicated disappointment
just a simple letting go and changing of directions.
Resilience

If I can recognize my own resilience then

anything can happen to me

(like I already know that it will)

without me needing to predict when or if or how.

Then chaos is a little more tolerable.

If I can remember that after every terrible thing

I have clawed and suffered and gasped and choked,

but also, Here I am.

It does not last forever.

And hasn't my yoga mat taught me

that really, you can breathe through anything.